an experiment -Brigitte

...so, it turns out, when I'm sucking at eating well I don't want to write here.

I forget sometimes this is a journey. (I forget this concept in the broader spectrum of my life, as well.)
It doesn't have to be perfect.
Sigh.
I want to be perfect at it.
I want to be successful.
I want to remember when I can hear the peanut butter m&m's calling my name how wonderful I feel when I ignore them.

This last week has been an interesting one in regards to the diet. I completed a 31 hour fast for the first time in my life last week. I did it for two reasons: my pastor had talked about being able to hear God's voice more clearly during a fast, and I ate total crap the weekend before, and felt the need to cleanse my poor body. And, I loved it! I mean, it totally sucked not eating dinner. Or a snack before bed. The first part of the day was easy; I often get running around so fast that I forget to eat until about 3pm or so. Once that time hit, I had to be conscious about my decision to not eat until the next morning.
Result: I will definitely be doing that again.

Other interesting thing. It was an emotionally turbulent week/weekend for me; whenever my brain gets a little wonky my food choices are the first to go. I either don't eat enough, eat enough but of pure crap, eat 2000 calories at breakfast and then, filled with self-loathing, continue the process the rest of the day...you get the idea.
And yes, I fell into this common trap.
BUT. I made better choices than usual. So: win.
(ooh...and, I didn't get drunk. Double win.)

Today? So far? (Because yesterday no longer matters and tomorrow isn't here yet...)
~Half an avocado for breakfast.
~a handful of nuts and berries for snack.
~(minimally) processed grilled chicken strips and a few pieces of dried fruit for lunch.
~two handfuls dried pineapple (unsweetened, organic) for snack
~hamburger patty, piece of bacon, a few sweet potato "fries" (dollop of ketchup included) for dinner

Definitely need to do better on incorporating more veggies. Need to be better about drinking my water. Reeallly wanting to start lifting again. (where in the heck am I going to find the time for that??!)

The reward??
On Friday, I bought the smallest size jeans I've worn in twelve years.
I guess I can stick with this after all :)

Final thought...
Would anyone be interested in doing a 30-day challenge with me? That's how I started this whole process, and I found I was much more willing to follow the "rules" when there was an "end-date".
Let me know!